Bitter days. . Literal ha. .

*This version is different from the original one, several lines were omitted. Visit Aikobeb's site for the infantile archive.

ROOTS OF YESTERDAY

after just about everything,

you'd give me this kind of feeling?

who the hell do you think you are?

you're just a person who's so far,

far enough to hurt me like what you're doing

you always keep me thinking

about something i couldn't completely understand

all i want is to hold your hand

is that too much to ask?

perhaps. i extremely need to take off my mask

to show what's inside this,

a heart longing for the much-awaited bliss.

i know our thing couldn't be forever

but i don't want to hear the word never

i beg you to please stay

utter everything you have to say

if our hearts have to let go,

please gently let my admiration flow

to the stream of ending as gradual

i wish our love was immortal

every morning, every night

couldn't get you out of my mind

it's getting harder and harder

for me to think it would soon be over

but somehow, through this poem, i'm saying i do cherish you

more than you could ever conceive or perceive

i sense a lot of butterflies everytime i think of you

smell your scent, the aroma of this and that

you're just my all

you make me fall so deep,

so immersed that i barely pay attention when you talk

don't know if i'd still hold on

or just get rid of you and move on

don't know if it's time to say goodbye

or stay here with you up high

i want you

your affection is just as few.

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Not that suitable for my current status in life no more. God gave me something. Something so great. Surprisingly unusual. It's the greatest gift I've ever received in my entire life. . . . . . . . . . as a teen. Though it won't last longer than I wish, I know, I know, I know. . 

Lahat tayo makaka-receive ng magandang balita from Him, patience lang talaga kailangan. Yep, sounds conventional, ano?!! Pero that's the way it is. . Someday, you're gonna have that audacity to do something that your heart apparently loves to do. . Ssmile din kayo abot hanggang tenga.  AAAAYYYTTT?!! Ciao!! Mooooooore happiness and love for everyone. Hehe. Godspeed! :)

Addiction. Bisyo na talaga to.

Sa 15 years, 11 months, and 8 days of my existence. . .ngayong araw, syempre. . .  'Yung pang 15 years, 11 months, and 7 days ang pinaka. Haaay, can't think of an adjective that would best describe my feeling e.

Wala, it started out like any other day lang din, same old same kumbaga. . Never thought that it would end like that. Grabe, kung naging pelikula lang yung pang 15 years, 11 months, and 7 days ng buhay ko, I would say that it's one of the best endings EVER!! 

At first, it was sooo awkward, alam mo yun. . Parang, you're not sure of anything. Ewan ko ba kung pano ko idedeliver ng maayos yung kwento. Ganto nga ata talaga feeling ng sobrang na-carried away. I couldn't even be so serious. . . . . . . . . . OUTSIDE. Pero INSIDE, focused na focused ako. Seriously.

Hmm, if only I could tell you the WHOLE thing, I would really squeal. Pramis. Eeh hanggang ganto lang talaga kaya ko, pa-haging. . So, please forgive me for being sooo mysterious. . X_X

You know what's the best thing about having that kind of feeling? After you contemplate, tapos magre-reminisce ka bigla. . Haaay grabe. . Ngingiti ka na lang ANYTIME; ALL THE TIME pa nga e. Yung tipong, hindi mo na maalis yung crooked smile na parating nasa labi ni Edward Cullen. . Tapos in just a snap, BUNGISNGIS na.  Even when I was just washing my hands, I'd catch myself smiling alone. . Laughing at myself. . Baliw na nga kung baliw, HAPPY e. Much much much much much happier than before. Actually, HAPPIEST. Swear.

I could feeeeeel the cool breeze of authentic delight in my heart.  Everytime na magpapatugtog ako, i'll sit back and relax. Then, look ANYwhere, smile. Yun. Yun at yun. Tsk!! Until now, may hang over pa din. One thing I couldn't believe that I just said when I sat on the couch after washing my hands. . "Sh*t." Malutong ha, clear pa. And I don't normally say that word in that way. Now that explains everything, I presume. It's true. It's true. It's true. I even tried to hide the eternal bliss I was feeling when I was eating my breakfast. Kaharap ko kase nanay ko, I couldn't hold back. I kept on grinning. I just pulled my shirt up to my face to cover up something that has to remain unseen. Hihi.

I KEEP on dancing, singing, laughing, and everything. . . for no reason at all. Habit ko na yang mga yan. Sabi nga ng aking mudra, para na 'kong t*nga. Hahaha!! Overjoyed lang po talaga. For those who keep on buzzing me who that "someone" might be, aba. . Ma-intriga kayo habambuhay, sa totoo lang. Mwahahahaha!! *smugs*

FOR YOU I WILL by Monica

I tried to download this song on Limewire. . 5% pa lang of 100, kinlick ko na. Excited e. Intro pa lang dude, wala pang lyrics ha. . I covered my face with my hands, the next thing I knew. . Naluluha na ko. JOLOGS, keii lang. . Tss. 'No ba namang buhay yan oh. Ang saya. HAHAHA!! Ganda pala ng kantang to. Noh?!! Uy ikaw kausap ko. HAHAHA!! Haaaay. Kakainlabs. . 8->
Verse 1:
When you're feeling lost in the night
When you feel your world just ain't right
Call on me, I will be waiting
Count on me, I will be there
Anytime the times get too tough 
Anytime your best ain't enough
I'll be the one to make it better
I'll be there to protect you
See you through 
I'll be there and there is nothing
I won't do

Chorus:
I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength
Anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time
I Promise you
For you I will 

Verse 2:
I will shield your heart from the rain
I will let no harm come your way
Oh these arms will be your shelter
No these arms won't let you down
If there is a mountain to move
I will move that mountain for you
I'm here for you, I'm here forever
I will be your fortress, tall and strong
I'll keep you safe, I'll stand beside you , right or wrong

For you I will
Lay my life on the line 
For you I will fight a hulk 
For you I will die
With every breath, with all my soul 
I'll give my world
I'll give it all
Put your faith in me (Put you're faith in me)
And I'll do anything(oh)

I will cross the ocean for you (I will cross the ocean)
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength
Anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time
I Promise you (I Promise you)
For you I will, I will, I will, I will 

Repeat chorus

I promise you
For you I, I will

The young, and still young Christina. :))

None other than ME!! See, sinisipag ako dumaldal. HAHA!! Ilang minutes lang ang range ng first and second post oh. That's how excited I am to share every single thaaaang!! Kidding, not everything ha. Sobra naman yon, magtitira ko para sa sarili ko. Soooo, too much of daldal chuchu na me, plano ko lang naman i-post yung pictures.

Grade 3 yang nasa left; Best in Writing ako nung mga panahon na yan. Last April 5 naman ata tinake yung photo ko sa right. That's in Greenhills, kumain with some of my relatives, nangangalimot ako niyan eh. That was the same night na si *toot* eh nagtext. HAHAHA! Ah basta. Too much na talaga to, promise. Beyond the limits na. Sabi nang ipo-post lang yung pictures e!! Waaahh!! I'm having fun typing my thoughts here haaa. Maya-maya bisto na ko. So, ciao na talaga. :))

an online diary? hmm let's see. . :))

Don't know what to say eh. I just created this account for Jeo's sake, kinulit niya ko gumawa ng ganto dito sa Blogger last last week ata! Pero sigurado naman magugustuhan ko din mag-share ng thoughs dito, HAHAHA!!

To tell you honestly, I have lots of things that are running, and will run FOREVAH (siguro), in my head right now. I'm just not yet ready to share them with you. Masyado pang komplikado ang panahon ngayon para ipaalam ang mga bagay-bagay tungkol sakin. Actually, they have something to do with my fragile heart. HAHAHA!! Maybe next time. If I have to tell you this, maybe my future posts would be somehow worth the wait naman eh. Hehe. Baka mamaya sipagin ako dumaldal dito, baka lang naman. Watch out na lang. Ciao! :))

P.S. Did you know that. . . The contents of this entry are supposed to be conveying a message like, "TINATAMAD AKO MAG-BLOG". 3:35pm ako gumawa ng post eh, pero tingnan niyo ang nakalagay, 4:13pm. Proof yan HAHAHA!! Ilang beses ko in-edit to, nakakatuwa pala dumaldal dito. HAHAHA! Fine. That's a fact. :))